
About a week ago me, my mother and my aunt (who is my mum's twin sister btw) took my grandmother out to lunch at a sweet hotel by the sea.
For the past few years I've been completely neglecting my grandmother, and even though my mother would ask me if I wanted to join her on her visits, I would always turn down her offer. Looking back now I feel so ridden with guilt, because my grandmother was very ill at the time, and instead of supporting her and being a loving grand-daughter, I just couldn't bear to be around her. Seeing a person you love, just withering away like that was just too much for me to handle. And writing this now, I realize how selfish I was, which makes me think I have a lot of lost time to make up for. Luckily she has gotten a lot better now, and she is living at a home where people can properly take care of her and give her the medical help she needs.
There are so many teenagers out there who completely neglect and ignore their grandparents, and to think that I was one of them is just very hurtful, because I never saw myself as that kind of person. Especially since she's the only grandparent I have left (both my grandfathers died before I was born), and you never know how much time you have left.